Disappointing trials results

could you believe this eye candy here is actually supposed to act as edward in the twilight saga??

His name is Gaspard Ulliel by the way.

Instead of this homeless guy here??

Robert Pattinson

My brother's wearing a bra strap.Oops! That was just a slip of my tongue. Haha it's actually his heart rate monitor strapped onto his chest.

Finally the DooMSday came, on Friday. Madam Chong was gonna give out our acccounting paper. Purposely took some cadbury sweets hoping the glucose could calm me down. Alas! the results came, and i lost my bet-(he'll get 89 or above for acc) to Soon Wei. The loser will have to spend the other two scoops of Haagen Daaz ice cream. There goes almost two days worth of pocket money for me!!

sigh.. I hate this feeling of anxiety each time we sit for any college exams or a levels exam. each results might jeopardise our future-joking.. just our scholarship. Anything works with money.. Money speaks louder than words.Don't you guys out there agree with me??

Someone described me as a skinny girl with shrivelled-looking shoulders.. IT IS AS IF I"M A WiltiNG PLanT!!! argh!! The cheek he has, that oops i forgot his name. How does a skinny girl like me get fatter without any adddition to the cellulite or fats i have on my body?? I did not ask for this.

This is crazy. I dreamnt about a guy i don't even really know twice last night. That day he asked me what song i wanted him to play for me with a guitar on his hand.. If only i'd say something and not let my curiosity roam around this way. Then maybe i won't have these sweet dreams. It's scaring me.

Happiness is like a butterfly which, when pursued, is always beyond our grasp, but, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you.
Nathaniel Hawthorne

the cemetry calls

hm..i went to the cemetry yesterday...in the bright daylight of couse!! Who ever dares to walk through the silent valley up the hill with tombstones around them?? With the creepy wind sounds..and the hairs at the back of our necks standing... All sorts of images coming into our mind, white flowing figures whispering to us....it's all in the mind:> At least i hope so until i see one...

I spotted a broken tombstone..and wondered what really happened to it?? Unfinished business in the living world? Or avengers who can't get him since he has crossed over to the other side?? or is it that there is a killer lurking in the shadows...unsatisfied... My imagination ran wild.. curious as i am, i asked my aunt and was requested to shut my mouth..needless to say, it's superstitious??

see the hands of the dead reaching out to us....

Then my wise granny told me, perhaps.. they found that the feng shui there is not good for his soul. They might have dug out his grave to incinerate his body and keep his ashes elsewhere where he could lay in peace... hm... i wonder..oh i do wonder..is it really that way??What made them think the "feng shui" of that place ain't good?? The deceased haunted his living ones in their dreams??

pretty cool tombstone eh??

getting personal

i do not want to fall into another moment of your gravity...
-gravity- by sara bareilles but i just can't stop myself..

i realise how some people can be so mean sometimes...and somehow i regret i had to be there to see the ugly side of them exposed to me... backstabbing, gossiping, sadists...

i saw u from a distance, the tune you were playing to...
draw my steps nearer to you... my favourite song..
all of a sudden, my eyes narrows down its focus to you alone...
excitement ran in my blood and i exclaimed...
and then you turned around, our gazes locked... but i don't remember who u are....

the beauty of the world overlooked

I get lost in the beautyOf everything i see
The world ain’t as half as bad
As they paint it to beIf all the sons
If all the daughters
Stopped to take it in
Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin
It might start now.Well maybe I’m just dreaming out loud
-come home- by one republic ft sara basseiles

when one gets reflective

Here's Bukit Tabur my big brother brought me too before he finally went overseas... it actually came out in the newspaper last sunday. He should really read this: If you’re scared of heights, you should give Tabur a miss. Apparently i'm one of those and i got called a sissy:<>

Sometimes we reach a point in life where we find out finally that our interest may not necessarily be our strength in life. I guess i've just reached mine. Sadly though i ponder about my choices in life, trying to make up excuses not to give up on my interest, but day by day, i realise my proficiency in english is not sufficient for me to continue battling my way through the subject. sigh..

I miss the memories we had during some netball school training. it doesn't matters if i'm not a professional as long as i train my best and give out my best, the ending will always be happy if not bittersweet. But then is then, now is now. Life gets harder as we grow up and mature. Our desires should not exclude our consience or else we will end up doing the wrong things in life. wow..This is scary, i'm becoming so reflective all of a sudden..so unlike the usual Caryn.

hey gesh!! I think I've just come to know a friend just like you. your ravinder guy??still remember him?hehe.. I miss the good old days when gesh will always be picked on by me and my fellow girlfriends... Someday we'll meet up again?? and maybe prank call some guys...whoever is the unlucky one..tsk tsk..haha..

random

with my hair all tousled and brains all wishy-washy

Staring at the blank screen,
straining my eyes and brains,
to come out with something substantial
for my coursework,
but my creativity juice is running out...
SOMEBODY HELP ME!!!!

I need a title for my english literature coursework. should i write about the course of revenge or about villainy which is so hard to prove unless i'm manipulative??

My big bro is back:>

wow!!

Holidays came and gone before i even had a chance to enjoy it:<>


Once we reached there, i guess without control i fell into the sin of gluttony. Dishes of ikan bakar, fried chicken wings, and squids, in a total of 30 minutes got wobbled up by this greedy girl here. sigh...no wonder my tummy has expanded. why am i eating like that? because in my house, there's onli healthy food.. now that given the chance, why not utilise it to satisfy my junk food appetite? rational right?


In the night,me and my cousins had a great and wonderful karaoke time in my aunt's room. so fun it was that i sang until my throat became dry. hm..maybe i should practice more on singing chinese songs.

My big Brother is finally home!! thus that can explain the extra noises in my house. What noise?With his usual tricks, he disturbed me with all sorts of stuffs until i go crazy.. lol. i've certainly missed him after two years he's finally back from chicago.



lookie here!! his home-coming gift. one night after he returned? his ass became itchy that he has to cure it by having some bike rides at a park in putrajaya. he did a few dare-devil jumps, and fell.





this brother of mine is always searching for new thrills i guess.. he even went sky diving twice without inviting me, his only beloved sister... so mean!!