getting personal

i do not want to fall into another moment of your gravity...
-gravity- by sara bareilles but i just can't stop myself..

i realise how some people can be so mean sometimes...and somehow i regret i had to be there to see the ugly side of them exposed to me... backstabbing, gossiping, sadists...

i saw u from a distance, the tune you were playing to...
draw my steps nearer to you... my favourite song..
all of a sudden, my eyes narrows down its focus to you alone...
excitement ran in my blood and i exclaimed...
and then you turned around, our gazes locked... but i don't remember who u are....

the beauty of the world overlooked

I get lost in the beautyOf everything i see
The world ain’t as half as bad
As they paint it to beIf all the sons
If all the daughters
Stopped to take it in
Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin
It might start now.Well maybe I’m just dreaming out loud
-come home- by one republic ft sara basseiles

when one gets reflective

Here's Bukit Tabur my big brother brought me too before he finally went overseas... it actually came out in the newspaper last sunday. He should really read this: If you’re scared of heights, you should give Tabur a miss. Apparently i'm one of those and i got called a sissy:<>

Sometimes we reach a point in life where we find out finally that our interest may not necessarily be our strength in life. I guess i've just reached mine. Sadly though i ponder about my choices in life, trying to make up excuses not to give up on my interest, but day by day, i realise my proficiency in english is not sufficient for me to continue battling my way through the subject. sigh..

I miss the memories we had during some netball school training. it doesn't matters if i'm not a professional as long as i train my best and give out my best, the ending will always be happy if not bittersweet. But then is then, now is now. Life gets harder as we grow up and mature. Our desires should not exclude our consience or else we will end up doing the wrong things in life. wow..This is scary, i'm becoming so reflective all of a sudden..so unlike the usual Caryn.

hey gesh!! I think I've just come to know a friend just like you. your ravinder guy??still remember him?hehe.. I miss the good old days when gesh will always be picked on by me and my fellow girlfriends... Someday we'll meet up again?? and maybe prank call some guys...whoever is the unlucky one..tsk tsk..haha..

random

with my hair all tousled and brains all wishy-washy

Staring at the blank screen,
straining my eyes and brains,
to come out with something substantial
for my coursework,
but my creativity juice is running out...
SOMEBODY HELP ME!!!!

I need a title for my english literature coursework. should i write about the course of revenge or about villainy which is so hard to prove unless i'm manipulative??

My big bro is back:>

wow!!

Holidays came and gone before i even had a chance to enjoy it:<>


Once we reached there, i guess without control i fell into the sin of gluttony. Dishes of ikan bakar, fried chicken wings, and squids, in a total of 30 minutes got wobbled up by this greedy girl here. sigh...no wonder my tummy has expanded. why am i eating like that? because in my house, there's onli healthy food.. now that given the chance, why not utilise it to satisfy my junk food appetite? rational right?


In the night,me and my cousins had a great and wonderful karaoke time in my aunt's room. so fun it was that i sang until my throat became dry. hm..maybe i should practice more on singing chinese songs.

My big Brother is finally home!! thus that can explain the extra noises in my house. What noise?With his usual tricks, he disturbed me with all sorts of stuffs until i go crazy.. lol. i've certainly missed him after two years he's finally back from chicago.



lookie here!! his home-coming gift. one night after he returned? his ass became itchy that he has to cure it by having some bike rides at a park in putrajaya. he did a few dare-devil jumps, and fell.





this brother of mine is always searching for new thrills i guess.. he even went sky diving twice without inviting me, his only beloved sister... so mean!!

Craved for sleep but when i get abundance of time for it??the crave is gone

Life has been pretty much a buzz in my ears as we've been having surprise tests from day to day. my panda eyes are becoming more and more apparent.. sob:< i'm facing a dilemma here.. should i or shouldn't i drop english literature? its so tough... and the hw given is such a headache!! even my parents don't want to influence me anymore on it, giving me the full responsibility of making this decision. help!!!

Lord, give me the eyes to see what is good and what is best for me...

Thursday was our last day at college, james, reysha, colin and I went off on another adventure to the movies watching one of the top rated movies of all time:"up". Truthfully, I can't believe I'm watching this movie. hehe..I guess i'm still young at heart?(childishly she giggles) it is quite hilarious albeit the fact its ultimately predictable that i almost fell asleep. Now that holidays has finally started, i find myself dreading it and longing for college to start again.

Disappointments for some,celebrations for the rest

Esctasy is riding high on Caryn-land.. lol.. Our a levels first semester exam results came out. What a shocking news we all received. Mixed reactions could be seen at MCKL's hall and corridors. The worse thing was, cruel Miss Betsy made us wait for one whole hour before we could get our hands and eyes on our own results.

Imagine our anxiety and impatience, sorry gay keong, we couldn;t concentrate on your presentation. When i finally saw my results slip...I was jumping up and down like a monkey..haha.. I CAN't Believe my eyes!!! I got a C for my english literature. its wonderful indeed I didn't get the BIG FAT disappointing 'U'(failed) like my trials. 60 marks, an incredible miracle,Praise the lord...considering that i only got half of that for my trials.

Being extremely high and all skippy, i stumbled on my own foot and almost trip in front of my crush:< TIME FOR CELEBRATION!! YIPPPEEEE!!! my parents are so happy about my results, they made time to bring me out for a movie at sunway pyramid:> gosh, i can't stop smiling.

Ghosts of girlfriend's past is a total blast!! i love it:> 'You can't always run away from your past' very true indeed!! this playboy certainly broke hundreds of women' hearts just because he is afraid to get hurt again, he crosses out the word"commitment from his vocabulary.. hm.. a note to myself: don't get attracted too much to the bad guys...

Connor, who've never believed in love is then visited by the girlfriends past, present, and future which the experience changes his attitude and allows him to reconnect with Jenny, his first love who broke his heart.. awww!! so sweet!! In my opinion, the ending is so predictable yet quite impossible though for that to happen in reality. A PLAYER CAN NEVER CHANGE. fullstop.