I feel like I am watching an early demise unfold before me. I was happy, I thought I was finally able to let go of the past. That was until I saw a message you sent my friend. Suddenly, the sleepless nights and the appetite loss came back. I can't stop the tears anymore.
People say change is good, embrace it and you will be happy. But am I? I feel like my whole life right now is just like a movie, I am not living it, just watching it pass me right by. Yes, people can say, in fact everyone would say it, I made the decision to leave a 5-years' relationship, so I would have to find a way to move on. It feels so hard.
I started dating again. He is really nice to me and he made me feel really special again. But, am I ready for this? It feels like things are moving too fast. I have always been an impulsive person. I just want to do whatever makes me happy at the moment. I could feel something has changed between us. I could hear the deafening silence. I have tried asking him what is wrong, but he gave me no explanation. I could hear the lyrics playing out in real life twice in this year.
"Say something, I'm giving up on you"
It feels like a smoke screen just lifted and I could finally see clearly who I am and what do I really need now.
who am i?
- Caryn
- A girl who looks innocent on the outside but truly fiery inside.One who loves procrastinating,fell in love with lobsters dipped in melt butter, spaghetti with extra cheese, and not to forget crab accompanied with chilli shrimps. Her most fond weaknesses: a forgetful nature and a hopeless directions-giver even in places she's supposed to be familiar with.
happiness comes from within. you either choose to be happy or you don't, there's no in between. remember that whenever you don't know whether you're happy or not.
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