Merry christmas everyone!!
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A moment of silent thoughts

It has been 10 days indeed from the day I agreed to be his. N there I thought a platonic friendship could work. My! How wrong was I?? Tell me more about it...

They all say there is a first time for everything you do.
With those innocence in your eyes, and in my actions,
It is very beautiful indeed,
With Surreal expectations set,
Comes Disappointments and Fear,
guess I'm just a coward.

He believes in idealism, I believe in realism and my!! how do they conflict and our ideas differ??
We couldn't be more different.

Sometimes, hiding in my own corner, I wondered about how some events have taken onto their course, and decisions lead to consequences. How I wondered perhaps I could be in the wrong course? I love things I could apply to real life but when things becomes too complicated, I feel like giving up.

Staring up at the sky,
Blinking back my tears,
Trying to battle the weakness,
and cover them,
but i guess I've feelings after all,
and getting scolded continuously could really reduce just about anyone to tears,
As much as my pride stops me from showing my vulnerability,
It failed to take control of me this time.

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puzzled

It gets a bit hard for me to take this all in at once.. n now he pops da big question.. not tat i dun wanna think bout it, It's just tat it all comes so fast.. b4 I even hav da time to digest the change between us.. perhaps I was avoiding da question cuz I dun want it to happen lk it did with my ex? Perhaps I just need some time n having my pride, I wouldn't let myself be his so easily.. or probably I just need some time n some romantic gestures instead of just popping da question n pressuring me to answer.. I don't really know myself... It's just not how I would answer last time.. bout following my heart? Getting more n more sceptical bout love...

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Enjoying every second I could

Ecstasy.
Out of breath.
Searching. Deciding.
Contemplating of what matters most to me.
Kissing him under the moonlight overlooking the Canterbury Cathedral. Call me a die-hard romantic, but I'm glad it happened.
Shivering yet kept warm in his embrace, satisfied, we walked back home.

Twilight-breathtaking, n wishing i am with someone now

Meet Nicole a.k.a. Lik Ho:) Got to thank him loads for walking me home sometimes. The walk all the way home could be so lonely at times..*sob*

Super blur:) But I loved it!! the scenery behind me is so breathtaking!!Twilight!!

Happy belated birthday, Elina Protopappa, my always excited and jumpy hallmate. Oh did I forget to mention that I'm living in an all girls accomodation? ANd that one of my hallmates is a homosexual? I'm okay with her and all. But walking out of the bathroom wrapped in a towel, I'll always be wary if she's outside. I don't wanna tempt her and look for trouble right?

Javi(super sexy voice he has) and Atiyah:)

Somehow I love this picture so much, ducks in their own habitats doing their own thing without a worry in the world. I finally had a serious talk to my british friend about what he did the night before that brought me to tears. I hope he doesn't becomes so insensitive again.

:) I'm so happy, shopping with Nick was a breeze. Had some lunch at Nando's yesterday. OH MY GOSH, creammy mashed potatoes, chicken breast garnished with hot peri peri sauce, and coselaw certainly lifted my spirits up for the day!! I saw loads of cushions and comfy pillows to furnish my bed with. BUT IT"S A FREAKING 12 POUNDS PRICE TO PAY FOR COMFORT!!! SCARY!! hm..Maybe I could just settle to persuading my friend,Eddy(the one who got himself a RM1500 leather jacket) to get me a Teddy bear for 15 pounds soon for my so-called birthday present:) WIsh me Luck, guys!!

Autumn in Canterbury

Dover:) Cross the road, and cars will stop to let u cross:) Take a ferry from here, you can get to France and visit Paris, the city of love. This encourages the spontaneous people to just hop on the ferry and there! PARIS, Eiffel tower!! Smoking Hot and romantic french guys!!

As the leaves turn brown to mark the beginning of autumn:), U wake up in the morning, open your windows, you won't realise it's morning. Sunlight is so rare here.

Best excuse to be late for class:

"I can't wake up because the sun did not greet me morning today"

I see ducks here, this was in Leeds Castle's premises.

* Farah(Guys, guess how old she is??She's 27 btw)*the ever cheeky bobby lee fan-Atiyah*and oops..I forgot her name again:P She fell off her bike and had seven stitches on her chin because of that.

The scenery here in Canterbury is so pretty, I wish to whip out my camera during my walk home to snap a picture to prolong that beauty. Sadly, I don't have a camera phone with me .

Overlooking the field, you see loads of quaint buildings,and by far the canterbury cathedral is the tallest building amongst all. I've heard that any buildings that were build were only allowed to build at a height shorter than the cathedral. :) Strange eh, guys?

Besides, I love it here, basically it's all so great, beautiful and welcoming. But, I feel so homesick. I was in need of the loos at night one day in the city centre, rushed to the public toilet only to realise, it's over office hours, and even answering a nature's call will have to wait until I get home. It was closed after 5, could you believe that??

I wish the rain could mask my tears!!

I couldn't find the ingredients I need for asian cooking.

Got this in reply:" U're in an English country, doubt u'll get much chinese food here, snap out of it!" *sob*

I guess they couldn't understand. I feel homesick and that made me feel even worse. Then when i was checking out at the counter, it was my first time, he got frustrated and helped me instead while scolding me all the way unti I flinched. Sat alone in the bus, while my british friend went to chat with his housemates.

Then I remembered something my hallmate told me before. She felt so homesick she made out with a guy who's ugly to her just because she needed a good hug. Hmmm.. I think I could relate to that. Guess I really crave a good hug right now:(

That's all from me. Nick, Jeremy and James, I really miss you guys!! Nick, I prefer shopping with u much more. Jeremy and james, I miss you!! I miss how u could both be so understanding. Kuan yu and Sam, I missed the days where we would eat a thai lunch and eat all we want at petaling street. Sherry, Poh Yen and Koh Han, you're probably my best shopping mates:) We have similar taste!!

Toodles for now, sorry to end my post on a sad note. But I'll be okay soon enough:)

XOXO guys!! Hope to see you all soon!!

I miss my granny:( I wish she could fly over here and accompany me..

The way she cooks so well with ease

and the way she is capable of doing everything with her age,

the way she listens to my stories and accounts of my daily life without scolding or nagging at me,

the way she just pampers us with good food:( I miss her loads..

Experiencing a new culture

Firstly, I went drinking with my coursemates:Philip, Lik Ho, and his sis, Wan Yiee:) *With loads or reluctance and hesitations* Drank 3 shots in a row and almost stumbled down the stairs halfway during bar crawling. I know, I'm such a bad drinker right guys? N sadly I've not met my very own Clark Kent yet. Hope u guys aren't thinking that he's my new bf or sth, because he's taken:) N I am a good girl, I don't go for guys who r taken. N thanks to him, I wasn't drunk cuz he drank the rest of my shots:) Weeee~~!!

Wan yiee, Phillip and me:)I'm all red n dizzy here already, Pity me:(

Nicole a.k.a. Lick who,me, Philip and Aveena:)

Going international now:) Jabriel(spanish)p.s.:when he speaks, I can almost melt!! His voice is so sexy!! Nick from brunei, and Joe from Malaysia as well!!

And for the first time in my whole 18th years of life, I CLIMBED A TREE:) Weee~~!! It is such an accomplishment

I'm leaving the country!!!

Wooohooo!!! I looked at my calendar n gasped, I am flying off to the UK next Friday.

I can't help myself from feeling all afraid and anxious to know what comes next. After all, by leaving home, I'm leaving my comfort zone-my family and my sweetest friends.

I shall not land at Timbuktu, I shall not land at Timbuktu!! As if by chanting it, I won't land at the wrong country:P That's to u, esther and kuan yew:) I shall find my way, and conquer my bad sense of direction.

Permissible outrage

College days is over, waiting for A level results and I got rejected by Great Eastern for the scholarship.
How miserable can things go?? Good luck, Joshua and May Ling, looking forward to see u both come out in the newspaper all glorious and beaming after winning the scholarship. You have my full support!! :)

BOO yaaa!! I got myself a cocktail dress for this Saturday. That sweet red hot piece of dress costs me RM169!! I did the maths n realised, that equals to roughly 30 hours of work. SIgh..all gone just like that.

To my utmost horror, when i came back, My mom told me that my dad ain't gonna let me wear it to the wedding dinner, because it's too low at the front:( DAd!! It's just part of the cleavage that could be seen, AND I"M ALREADY 19, I dun Need your permission for this. Not being rude, but just being reasonable.

They say "Road Kill", I say Anxiety Kills!

It has been 3 working days since last Friday, but I have not gotten wind of any news or any call from Great Eastern. May Ling and Xin Chean both got their calls of whether they're shortlisted or not for the next round. SIGh.. I hope the call comes now or tomorrow, be it a yes or no, I WANT AN ANSWER...

WEEEeeeeeeee! I passed my undang test.

What a surprise, my name came up in the newspapers!! wee haaa!! :) Bristol, Babe!!

Scholarships and the headaches involved

OOpsie It's been 3 months or so since I've last touch this blog.

Just a quickie update for u guys.
I've been so busy and obsessed in applying for sholarships and waiting for news patiently yet totally forgot to worry about my a level results.

First Shell, Got disappointed, phone interview didn;t go well cuz they did not send me an email to prepare me as promised. Everything asked was answered inpromtu:( Soon wei got his e mail!!! That's so unfair.

Then the next few weeks the reply from Uni of Kent and Maxis came, another huge disappointment and waste of time cum effort.
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Suddenly, this monday, after scheduling a meet up with my besties for a makan session in Petaling St, I had to cancel with them cuz I've just received a call from Great Eastern saying I am shortlisted for their preliminary scholarship assessment essay. The best thing was, I'm supposed to finish the essay in 24 hours time. I feel so sorry that i had to ffk on my friends, but if i do get this, I'll surely belanja all of you a haagen daaz ice cream:) Soon wei, I know i still owe you one, by the time i get my paycheck, U'll get your treat as promised.

The next day presented another boring task to complete-ATTEND A 7 HOURS UNDANG TALK.

2 days after I wrote my essay, I thought I could finally rest and get a good night's sleep. Another call came, this time, I'm shortlisted for their panel interviews the next day itself. Imagine my excitement and nerve wrecking moments.

First we were shown to a living hall to have a breakfast together with the other 13 shortlisted applicants. I saw Xin chean too:) Finally I found a school mate I'm acquainted with. 2 Assessment tests was given, one an IQ test, comprising of general knowledge, Mathematics and also our knowledge of the insurance company. The next one was just a simple essay:) Loved writing it!

After an hour's wait, all three judges of the panel came. Imagine our shock when we realised we were going to get interviewed by 3 judges in a glass room!!! We were arranged in pairs to save time, the interviewers were a bit intimidating, but the friendly atmosphere they created made us comfortable and at ease, performing our best in the first. I made a few major blunders in the first interview with the 2 ladies. Sigh..hope they don't penalise me for that.

The second interview with a guy who's said to be quite sharp by those who got interviewed turned out to be quite encouraging. He actually told me and my partner, he was quite impressed with the both of us. I was beaming, smiling foolishly from ear to ear like a Cheshire cat. :>

But what truly scares me is that my partner did way better than I did, as she knows what she is expecting in the Actuarial Science field as she had an internship with an Actuarial consultant company. I'm not being humble, it's the harsh truth.

After that I had a destress session with Jun yong, Kuan yu, and Samuel. It was really nice to see Sam's face when he loses haha!! He lost his manhood, he said after losing to me. LOL

That's all from me.

The closer u get to someone, the harder it is for u to part with them

My bro asked me to join him for an ice skating trip to sunway pyramid again last saturday. This time, it was with his friends. Hey hey hey, it's a pretty good exercise for our lower backs. Now i have a slight line down the middle of my back. yippeee!! For a girl who has zero muscles on her body, that provides a reason for celebration. At first, it was pretty awkward with his friends since i don't even know them. And then One of the guys tried to teach me how to skate properly not walk on ice. It's something nice that someone actually offered to teach me, unlike my bro who syoks sendiri skating as fast as he could not minding me at all. Albeit the awkward part of him holding my hand while teaching me, i guess i did my best. By the end of the day, i can skate wit a lil'-less risk of dropping. Yay!!

Our A levels results came out on wednesday. I must admit even though i did quite well( not bragging, just being to happy with them) in most of them, I'm still pretty disappointed when i saw i got a BIG FAt horrendous C polluting my results sheet on my Eng Literature subject. Sigh, made the most effort for it, lets me down the most. 1 more mark to B some more. Thank God i dropped the subject. Good riddance, and a better timetable for me. Cheers peeps!:>

We brought Izzie back for the weekend. Our handsome Golden retriever certainly steals the hearts of many. My bro brought him up Broga hill. Izzie became an instant celebrity amongst the girls and hikers there. Well, what to say, even my good looking bro was ignored when they saw Izzie. Love her so much, but it felt like something was missing when i open the door on monday. She wasn't there to take her string to me, asking for a walk. I miss her.

Ice skating-esctasy from liberation

This weekend has indeed been just a very short one. Let me explain to u guys why I said that.

5th of Mac:

Went with Samuel and Kuan Yu for a shopping spree for good CHINESE food in Brickfields to fill our stomachs. Note the Caps Lock, Brickfields, otherwise more known as the Little India, there are ample mamak stalls around, but with chinese food, hard to find. I ate 2 lunches, only one of them was satisfying to my stomach.

Waited for Kuan Yu to finish her classes before we finally headed off to Mid Valley to Join Jing Xian, Vanessa, Caryn(the other one from my college), Hon Yen and Alex to watch Alice in Wonderland in 3D form.

gothic Anne Hatthaway as White Queen. love this dark side of her but dislike the way she walks with both hands high in the air like a bimbo.

The Mad Hatter: played by Johnny Depp.

Mad hatter: Am I Mad?

Alice: Yes, in fact, You have gone bonkers.

Mad Hatter: Really?

Alice: But let me tell you a secret, most mad people are Geniuses.

Then I shall be mad:)

Alice entering into her wonderland, where imaginations run wild. I love the flowers most and the way they could talk expressively.

It was fantastic, being able to watch it in 3 dimension for the first time. Although it's pricey, but one movie that's truly worth it.

My favourite Character:the always smiling Cheshire cat. Love the way it played a fool of the Foolish Red Queen. Wearing Mad Hatter's famous hat and disappearing at the moment of execution.

The Red Queen: her size of head represents the extremity of bitchiness of this Queen. Selfish, superficial and shrilling queen.

After the movie, By nine at night, I went off to join Revolution Youth members for a mamak moment at Piccadily(nice bar/restaurant with a romantic ambience playing upbeat songs) at Millenium Square. It was Damien's birthday, wrote something cheeky on his birthday card.

6th of March:

Had Accounts extra classes half of the day, and cursing myself for even going. At night, went for a cozy gathering with my father's side's sisters and family. Absolutely love my Uncle's stories and his good cooking skills. Got all dizzy and drunk on 3 types of wine. Two red wines and one rice wine my uncle made-the best one ever, u should try:)

7th of march:

Attended church with eyes half open at 6.45 in the morning. Had a short nap before my aunts and my cousin brother with his friends woke me up with the door bell. Went on a leisure trip to Sunway Pyramid to ice skate. OMG got to see the other side of my cousin bro treating his girlfriend. (p.s:She's so hot and pretty, he's got good taste.) My cousin bro, who knows how to skate, was very willing to spend all his time holding her hand instead of having fun on the ice skating rink. Her shoe lace went loose and guess what he did?? He Actually bent down and tied it for her. AWWWWwwww... that's just so sweet.

Orientation Ball 2010, big blast with bizarre,interesting performances

The beautiful and the gorgeous:)

me and the twins:) yin ling and yin yee. hope i got their names right:P
me, sandy,mei cheen,dunno what's her name, maya, shudipta,dunno who she is and forgot her name...oops.

me and james's pretty gal, Yu wern
all in black:)

This year's Ob night was held in the Renaissance Hotel, pretty much more expensive food and also delicious ones in here. The performances were so entertaining. The group who danced enthusiastically to the Korean Song "Nobody" was the best. Even the "cute guy" i used to have a little crush on was in there.(P.s:This dance makes girls look sexxayy and cute, and guys..ahemhemhem,gay-ish) They won the Best performance awards wei!! Congrats to them, and also for me who has good taste in guys:P

This is the first time i'm out till midnight and my parents didn't querry:) I'm loving this freedom.

Unfamiliar surroundings, new ones

A whole new semester, new faces and even a facelift for our *extremely small college*...

It's pretty embarassing on the first day i came back to Methodist College after our long break, i couldn't even be certain which entrance to walk into. Turn around, blink an eye, one year has passed, but i still have my familiar faces around me:) Now that feels likes home.

At first glance of my new timetable, i gasped:) My class starts at noon on tuesdays! yeah!! finally i have late classes. The only bad thing i could find in my situation now is that, i have SUPER LONG BREAKS!! 4 to 5 hours and a half a day. That was until our classmate, Nicholas Chai went to complain about it. and there goes my breaks(no shopping anymore:<) Even though now, my classes all end before 4.30..I still have to go back at the same time anyway. So what difference does it makes?? *shrugs her shoulders*

hehe..now it's ragging week until next Tuesday. The juniors are gonna be bullied "gao gao" by us seniors to do several crazy stuffs just to get our signatures. Some got asked to lick another guy's belly button while others got called to propose to the opposite sex. Disgusting but fun for us. TOo bad, thath's the way to get accepted as a true MCKLian. Nice way to socialise eh?? Dun u guys think so?? It's really a funny sight to see some of the seniors, my classmates swarmed by a group of juniors just for a signature, until i couldn't see their faces. LOL..

Ho ho!! tomorrow there's a sale for books for less in YMCA:) good news for bookworms like me..

Google has been the most popular search engine in the world that it has become a household name everywhere.

next, meet it's "so-called" sister, gooje.com.:Spot the difference??
China really has the guts to go ahead with imitating goods. And now, Gooje.com.. Google is surely gonna sue their asses until it burns a permanent hole in this website's founders for infringements of copyrights.

Sleeping at 6 in the morning..half awake

Legion generated all kinds of responses from the audience. When God loses faith in his creation:humankind, he sends a legion of angels to destroy the world and wipe out humankind.THat's the catchline that kept me interested to watch this movie. It;s really not that hard to believe that God might lose faith in us or that the world is coming to an end. But what made me startled was the few facts that the angels that were supposed to protect and guide us are the ones that are going to destroy us, and an old kindly looking Granny suddenly bit a guy's neck to half.

Our friendship tokens:)

75% of my effort to prepare for my exams is done. Mechanics, my greatest fear, Statistics and Accounting paper(my absolute paranoia subject) the one that makes me sweat on the palms... all three of them are over, FINALLY. Accounting was the greatest disappointment to me. At least i worked so hard yet, i couldn't even answer one of the questions. sigh.. Especially when we walked out of the exam hall when everyone else is discussing about the questions, that includes me, saddens me even more. The last battle against economics unit 3 is yet to be fought. Cross my fingers that I'll do well in this one.

Then,"Sleepover at my place, people!" a text message from Gesh made me smile:) and off we went to her house for an all girl's slumber party. Dinner at the mamak stall made me realise one thing. of the five of us, only gesh has her driving license. Way to go girl! you're our hero. (her parking skills are a bit.. hm..)

the always hyper gesh, the sneaky vanessa, dreamy yet intelligent yee voon, me and the absolutely bubbly anith:)

We played a Truth or Dare game to lighten our hearts and also reveal our deeper secrets. hm..At least, this won't go anywhere outside our group. After all the teasings from Vanessa all these times, hehe i certainly made her pay back hahaha.. by some dares i challenged her to do,including calling some despo guy. Let's hope he won;t bug her for the rest of her life. Through this, we've got to learn that some of us aren't even as innocent as we thought after all:P tsk tsk...

Home alone, but i shall not starve to death

spider crabs in Jaya 33(p.s: burns a really big hole in your pocket. RM219 perKG) the super small flower crabs Finally came up with my very own New year's resolution:

1. to get a scholarship with 3 straight a's in my a levels
2. gain some weight to get some people to stop thinking of me as the one with the shrivelled shoulders or the skinny one
3. learn how to cook some meat dishes^ ^

Hehe..this is my first attempt guys:

After seasoning the chicken with some wine and dong guai with soya sauce, and waiting for hours before steaming it. Impatiently waiting...
waiting...
waiting...
I'll present you with my very first self-cooked Dong Guai Chicken dish:> yippedeedo!! Mission accomplished^^ MMMmmmm..yummy(1 big flaw though: not enough colour)The birthday girl for the day(4th jan):> my mom

The miserable twin crab dish we ordered that costed us RM30... when my mom could have just buy 4 BIGGER crabs and cooked it better with just RM12 gone.

Animal behaviour and some ridiculous stuffs

These Japanese Koi kept swimming in circles. won't they get dizzy??

Maybe we should call it a cows crossing.. not zebra crossing:> they've just proved their point

MOOOO!!Mooooo!! Moooooo.....

ISSUE OF USING 'ALLAH' IN NON-MUSLIM PUBLICATIONS MUST BE HANDLED WISELY - SHAHRIZAT
Bernama - Saturday, January 2
KUALA LUMPUR, Jan 1 (Bernama) -- The issue of non-Muslims using the word 'Allah' must be handled with utmost care by all parties involved said Datuk Seri Shahrizat Abdul Jalil.

"Actually, non-Muslims in the country accept the fact that the word 'Allah' belongs to Muslims. I am concerned that the issue can 'explode' if not handled wisely and with utmost care.

LOL..I never knew issues could explode..hahaa.. And says who the non-muslims in the country have accepted that fact?? if they have, why a court case??

"In a country like Malaysia, culture, tradition, convention and ethics, apart from the law, play a critical role in ensuring harmony among the races," she said in a statement here today.
Shahrizat who is also the Umno Wanita Chief said the wing would always monitor the situation of the case and would wait for the appeal.

Then maybe some politicians should do their part as malaysians, specifically as politicians to fight for matters of the country not turning matters of religion into a political issue?? Am i right, people??
Yesterday, the High Court ruled that the Catholic weekly, The Herald, can use the word 'Allah' in its articles to propagate Christianity among its followers.
Judge Datuk Lau Bee Lian had ruled that usage of the word was constitutional as long as the periodical was confined to educate the followers of the Christian faith.
-- BERNAMA

Personally, if they can come up with a good reasonable reason why "allah" should only be used by the Muslim, I'll accept them too. I meant absolutely no insult to the Islam God.

Auld lang syne 2009, and Aloha 2010:>

Sorry i've been a bit slow in updating my blog. Reason: having a sweet vacation with my other half:P i wish...^ ^Happy New Year Peeps! Thought of your new year's resolutions yet?? Some might aim for not falling in love with anyone this year, just like how I did last year, but alas! I failed keeping to that resolution. Why? cuz that's absolutely impossible. Feelings and matters of the heart can't go according to what our mind wants us to feel. If u get me..

Aloha Penang:>

Our trip to Penang was more of a road trip filled with good food and loads more of food. What can I say?? Penang is known for its good food and maybe it's temples. Maybe i should just let the pictures talk for themselves as they say pictures speak a thousand words, much more valuable than mine:P

My bro, my cousins and I

One big happy family:> Actually it's two